Life

Elizabeth is down for a nap and I have time to do some thinking. Her dad called a little bit ago, besically mad at me cause I still won't let him talk to or see her. He doesn't see at all where I am coming from and thinks I am being a total bitch!! When I confronted him about quitting his last job he tried to tell me he quit it for a better job....Hmmmm, let's do the math, he quit that job over 3 weeks ago and just started a new job 2 days ago...yeah that doesn't add up to me. He keeps trying to tell me that he is doing all this to get his life in order so he can be a dad to his girls, but the problem is that I have heard this same thing for over 2 years now and it never seems to pan out. However, everytime I talk to him he has this way of making me second guess my decisions in regards to Elizabeth. I tell myself I am doing what is best for her and in her best interest, but he makes me feel bad for her adn wonder if I am hurting her by keeping her away. I wish there was an easy answer to all this, but I know there isn't. I also wish I had more people to talk to who understood the situation and didn't judge me for my decisions....ughhhh......like I said, LIFE??!!